My beautiful precious Moses

[thegownchick]

Happened 27 Dec, still I am in shock. Really the dog didn't mean to, she was here while her parents went away on holiday. Moses didn't know her. He was walking around on the floor when she came into the study, they were just out of sight of the living room. Everyone was here. We heard a bang and then ran in, and there was Moses with his beak covered in blood, wings outstretched. I think she frightened him and he flew into something. I raced him up the vet and the vet said it's okay, he has just bitten his tounge, leave him with me, he'll be fine. But I rang fifteen minutes later and they said he was DEAD!! I think, I should have kept him here, should have put him in his cage where he felt safe, then he might not have died of shock, I could have kept talking tohim, let him know mummy is here. Moses was three, I had planned for him to live to be a very very old budgie and one day fall off his perch of old age, nothing else. I loved Moses with my WHOLE HEART and I know he loved me. We had something special. The breeder I got him from, a family friend, has given me a new five week old baby, who is the splitting image of Moses and I am trying really hard to train him but OH I don't know if he likes me. It is even more heartbreaking, because he is the same colour as Moses (purple), and to watch him try to get away from me when I try to finger train him, when Moses came to me so readily, just breaks my heart. My chest hurts. Of all the things in my world that God could have taken away, I would have given up anything, except leave my budgie please.
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[Nancy]

What an awful story. Poor little Moses. You did the right thing by rushing him to the vet. I know that is what I would have done. Try not to feel guilty. I know that is easier said than done.
Be patient with your new birdie. He doesn't know you yet but give him time and he will love you.
My sympathies are with you.

[JuliesGonnaDance]

I'm so sorry what happened to Moses. You did the right thing, don't blame yourself. RIP Moses, never to be forgotten.

As for the new budgie, it will take some time before he trusts you like Moses did. Just remember that all budgies are different, and some may take more time than others. :)

[Mickie]

Hi and welcome to this site. Sorry it had to be under these circumstances.
I am so sorry to hear about your precious budgie Moses.
My heart goes out to you. :( :( :(

[Budgiekin]

Oh sweety! I am so sorry to hear about this unfortunate accident! I can't imagine how upset you must be! :(

Just remember that your intentions with Moses were pure of heart and this incident was truly accidental. You did the right thing by bringing the little fellow to the vet like you did; it is just soooo unfortunate that your precious little guy didn't make it through.....I know how empty it can feel when a budgie dies, especially one that dies way before their time...

I'm sending you lots of hugs sweety! ;);)

[softie]

mosesmum, I am so very sorry to hear about your precious little Moses :(

I am sure that you've done everything you can to save his life, and you did by rushing him to the vet. I know that he feels very firtunate to have had you as his owner.

Rest in Peace Moses, we're all missing you

Hugss to you mosesmum <3

[Susie T]

So sorry to hear about Moses hun.:( My heart goes out to you, and remember that they may be gone...but they are NEVER forgotten by their mummies that loved them so much. Keep your chin up as it will probably take a while before you come to terms with what has happened. Bless you.:)

[Ruta<3]

Im sorry to hear this. I struggle watching my 3 dogsjust look at the cage I cant begin to imagine how much pain this must be putting on you. I do hope you new budgie doesnt follow the same path and gets to know you better.

[Nikoletta]

Mosesmum, I am really sorry.. I know exactly how you feel, because I've list my budgie 2 days before.. He swas 2 months very ill and he suffered every minute.. He died in my hands adn I am still shocked and devastated.. I send you hugs and I am sure Moses is happy because he was a good soul and he already forgived the dog and he doesn't blame anyone for this. It was just a wrong moment, an accident. You have our sympathy. Have a happy new year and please do not never forget Moses ( I am sure you will not).

[birdluv]

l'm so sorry for this to have happened to you , l understand how you feel you did everything right and l know this is hard on you but please don't blame yourself , unfortunately accidents do happen , again , l'm really sorry for your loss :(

[thegownchick]

Thanks to everyone for your kind words. If Moses had died of old age, I think I would have coped better. I would have said, well he's ten, and we grew old together. Actually I planned for him to live to 20. He was the best cared for budgie you would ever hope to meet. I keep seeing the tortured expression on his little face, in my mind, when I picked his body up from the vets. I wonder if he think I abandonded him. I should have put him in his cage and shut the door to give him security, and cleaned the blood off his beak later. My efforts with the new budgie, who we have named Joshua, is progressing slowly. I get so far with him and then I collapse into sobs. I find myself saying the same things to him that I said to Moses, like "you're so beautiful" and "I'm a happy budgie" and I sing him the same songs. My chest hurts so much, the pain in my heart is unbearable. I want to try to find someone whose child has been killed in a car accident, or some other terrible tragedy, and say to them How did you cope? There's not much point going to the doctor, I don't want drugs to knock me out. I really don't know how I'm going to get through this. I always said if anything happened to Moses, they'd bury me the next week. I never thought it would actually happen.
Janette

[thegownchick]

Thank you for listening guys, is it alright if I continue to hang around here and sob and wail? There is nobody else for me to talk to. What am I supposed to do, phone Lifeline? There's no pet loss counselling where I live.

If I had been up doing the ironing like I was supposed to be that day, instead of laying in bed because I felt sick, Moses would have flown to me and not into the door or wherever. I still feel SOOOOOOOOO guilty.

I'm trying so hard with this new budgie. I can't remember how long it took to train Mo but I vaguely remember three weeks he was strolling around on the floor, bold as brass.

What does a budgie do when he's nervous? Joshua the new budgie shakes his tail feathers alot and stretches out his feet, like he's doing yoga. Does this mean he's frightened? Moses wasn't scared of anything, usually, he had no reason to fear anything here (normally).

[BUUZBEE]

I am so sorry to read this. I know how it feels to have an accident like this. My bourke had night frights about a month ago, crashed into the side of the cage and is now showing signs of blindness.

hugggggsssss!

[pal0m1n0]

I was sorry to hear of your loss, it is particularly tragic. I really admire you for not blaming the dog. There are so many ways it might not have happened, if Moses had flown in a different direction, was a bit slower, had been in a different part of the room, who knows, it could have just ended as a bad scare. It was an accident, you did what seemed right and that is all you can expect of yourself. If you had not taken him to the vet and he died then you would be blaming yourself for not taking him.

I noticed that this only happened three days ago, so you are still pretty raw. Don't expect too much of your new bird and allow yourself time to grieve first. You don't need to have this new bird tamed this week or even next, it will happen. It is not a race. And yes you are welcome to hang around to sob and wail.

May I suggest that since the new bird is so young, 5 weeks, maybe you could ask your friend to take it back for a couple of weeks. It sounds like trying to look after this one and grieving may be a bit much for you right now.

This forum will help you get through this time.

[alicia]

oh thats terribul :'(

[Donna]

Hello,

First of all I want to welcome you to the forum. I have been gone a few days and so I missed the day that you joined and first posted. I hope that you will enjoy it here on the forum, and that you will meet many wonderful people with whom you feel you can share your heart with.

Also, I am so sorry about your loss of Moses. He sounds like he was a very special Budgie and my heart goes out to you. It truly was an accident and there is nothing you could have done to avoid it. Things happen all of the time that we wish we could be in control of, but life just doesn't always work the way we want. Please don't blame yourself.

I have a dog and I feel panic every time I enter the living room with my Budgies. I always call out to my family (to make sure that the dog is closed off in another room) but that doesn't mean it will always be safe. There have been a couple of times my dog has entered the room and my kids have forgotten that I had my Budgie (s) out and I panicked. So far things have worked out, but no matter how careful we may try to be, accidents still happen.

It is wonderful that you are able to open your heart to Joshua and that you are trying to establish a bond with your new Budgie. I'm sure that no matter how wonderful Joshua is, he will never be another Moses. Budgies are all different, just as people are. And it's okay to remember Moses as the special Budgie that he was. In time, I'm sure that you'll feel close to Joshua, too. Just give yourself (and him) LOTS of time. Moses may have trained quickly (and perhaps Joshua won't) but that doesn't mean he's hopeless. Just try not to rush things and try to take it slow.

Please feel free to come back any time you need an ear to listen. We want to help you, any way we can.

Take care and I hope to see you back soon.

Donna

[thegownchick]

Hi Donna,

Thank you so much for your kind words. I do love this forum and I wish I'd found it earlier. I always considered myself a "dog" person but not anymore. Moses was my constant for three years. We got him before the death of my old dog in 2003. I am firmly a "budgie" person now. You're right, Joshua will not be another Moses. but he is very lovely. He's not a "bitey" budgie, Moses would bite hard if he felt like it, but not this one. He will ocassionally let me close to him but not alot. Baby steps. I notice every little tiny victory now, perhaps I took these things for granted with Moses. Just so hard to get used to a new kind of normal, a normal and a future that doesn't include Moses. I was so convinced he would die of old age, that he would be the oldest living budgie in the Guiness Book of Records. It never ever entered my head he would die an untimely death. I am so grateful for this forum and I visit every day. It helps to keep me sane. Janette

[Budgiekin]

We're very happy to have you! And I am glad you find this place to be one you can come to regularly. We've got a very supportive bunch here; one that understands the difficulties of losing a beloved pet. ;)

[thegownchick]

Oh dear, when does the pain stop. It's been nearly a month (27 Dec) since Moses died and I thought I was beginning to do okay, but today BANG! Back came the grief, not just with a thump, but like a sledgehammer. I feel like I never want to get up again ever. I ask myself "when does the pain stop" then I answer myself "never Janette, it just eases off supposedly, but it will always be with you, now part of the 'new' normal". Oh dear, not coping, not coping. I don't think I am ever going to get over Moses dying. I still can't believe it.
If only I hadn't offered to look after that dog, he'd still be alive.