Shiloh and Suzie

[softie]

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When I whispered "Shiloh?", I checked for his pulse. He passed away right at that moment.

This morning, I woke up at around 8 and checked up on my budgies. Shiloh was in the bottom corner. Both his feet had fallen into the slits of the grate. I picked him up and he could not stupport himself and just fell over to his side.

It's hard to describe what I was feeling because I just knew that he wasn't going to make it. I didn't even bother thinking about bringing him to the vet. I just held him and stroke his lifeless body and kissed him.

He tried to fly, like you saw in the video, but he'd cripple over and hurt himself. He still had his dinner leftovers on his face.

Shortly after stoping the video, I held him for a few minutes and placed him inside a small shoebox filled with tissue.

Shiloh was my very first budgie I picked to bring home with me. He was the first budgie to step up onto my finger and eat from my palm. He was the first budgie I trained. He was a human budgie, he did everything with us. He would prefer spending time on my shoulder, than with the other budgies on the playgym.

He was the flirt. He'd flirt with everything that moves and doesn't move, and be turned down by every female budgie, but keep his mojo. He was a lover, a gentleman, and a true friend.

He was so special, and I never thought he'd go. Now, life seems so empty.

Before his burial, I decided to take a drive. When I get upset, I drive. I drove a couple of miles, with waterfalls coming down my face.

When I returned, I was faced with something that I couldn't even imagine would happen. I wen to check on Grace and Suzie, and there laid Suzie, dead.

Suzie was just growing up from a tiny baby budgie, to a flighted teen. She was on her way to becoming an adult. Why did she have to go so soon? Why today? Why with Shiloh?

I've never seen another budgie like Suzie. Not just her looks, but her personality. She was the one that wanted to "fit in" with the flock. She'd chase all my budgies tail, trying to play in their games. And no matter how many times my boys have told her to back off, she continued to try. She finally did.

I have placed her next to Shiloh in the shoebox, and they are resting in my backyard.

Words can't describe the pain, agony and confusion I feel. Yes, some of you may be saying to get their autopsies done, but there are more greater things to be concerned about. Grace.

Grace looks like he's doing okay. I have scheduled a vets appointment for tomorrow morning. He's got normal symptoms and he's active, playing with his toys and eating.

I do wonder what happened to my two babies. Could they have died for the same reason? Most likely. Am I urgent to find out what? Not really.

I've never been one to believe in autopsy, although I do understand why it is needed. Shiloh and Suzie were my two budgies that I loved so much. I don't want to destroy their bodies. I believe that if they've passed away, that's it. Leave them be.

It's hard to believe that three of my budgies have passed away in such a short period of time. It's hard to believe that yesterday, I had three, and today, I only have my Grace.

I don't know whats next for me and Grace, but I know that he will be loved and cared for. He's the only one I have now.

I love you Shiloh and Suzie... Rest in peace my loves.

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[Angie]

Oh no I am so sorry. I hope you last bird gets a clean bill of health.

[my budgie billy]

I cant tell you how sorry i am:(
**hugs**

[Budgiekin]

Oh Softie! I am so sorry to hear about your two little sweeties Shiloh and Suzie! I can't imagine what you you must be feeling right now; to have two in one day...I just can't imagine. You have certainly struggled this year sweety...Christmas and Dallas...and now Shiloh and Suzie. It just doesn't seem fair, does it? Please know that I am thinking of you and that you have all kinds of support here. May Shiloh and Suzie fly high forever with Christmas and Dallas...and all of our beloved budgies whom we have lost.

[Meghanxx4]

I am so, so sorrey Softie! The video is just so heart warming.I hope Grace is healthy. Perhaps it was virus or disease that was passed on from the previous budgie you lost. Anyway tomorrow the vet will tell you exactly whats up with Grace . Lets all hope hes healthy. RIP Suzie, and Shiloh.

[Babyluv12]

Oh my goodness...I couldn't believe the post- I went to it right away. Shocked. I know that saying I'm sorry doesn't do much but I really am. I know you're hurting. I can't imagine what it's like. Please have Grace checked up. I know an autopsy is your choice and it's ok if you don't want to do one but two budgies in one day is not something that happens everyday, as I'm sure you know..Something was wrong. That's the thing about birds-they hide it all to well. You took great care of your babies and I am sorry this had to happen to you. If you need anything let me know.
I wish you and Grace the best.
RIP to ALL your babies that passed
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PS_ I just watched the video after posting and I started crying- I can't believe it-it's like I watched Bella all over again. I'm so sorry. I hope you're ok.
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[clifff123]

I'm shocked, so sorry: Rip Shiloh and Suzie

[star-24]

oh aaralyn, i'm so sorry, its devastating to lose 1 little sweetie, but 3 within weeks is heart breaking, i do hope for the best with grace, and were always here for you whenever you need us

RIP shiloh and suzie fly high over rainbow bridge xx

[ally and flock]

i dont even know what to say. i know the pain you're going through. dont blame yourself. i am really sorry. im still sobbing from your post and the video

[pal0m1n0]

That is just so awful, I don't know what to say. I hope Grace is okay.

[Star]

That video was so sad. I am so sorry, softie. I can't imagine what you are going through. I seriously, can't tell you how sorry I am.

((hugs))
RIP Suzie and Shiloh. Fly free..

I hope little Grace is healthy.

[Marsheliah]

Oh, Aaralyn, I do not know how to express how bad I feel for you. I can't imagine losing one of my Fids, let alone two in one day. And darling Dallas just a little before. All I can say, is I am so sorry. I've watched the picture updates of little Suzie, and Shiloh, as long as I have been on this forum. They seemed so sweet. Your video brought tears to my eyes. I am so very sorry. I express my sincere sympathies. Shiloh and Suzie have joined Dallas and Christmas across the Rainbow Bridge. They couldn't have had a better home than with you. They were loved throughout their lives. You gave them love, and they loved you back. I'm sure they miss you, but are having a reunion with the others you have lost. Rest in Peace, Shiloh and Suzie. Also, I wish the best to you and Grace.

[Kiwikeeper]

It's just not fair. You loved them so much, and did everything you could. Why do they have to be taken? Why are you having to go through so much pain in such a small amount of time? I am so sorry. I hope that you heal soon from all of this. I know your babies must have loved you very much for all of the love you gave them.

[Paperman12]

I'm terribly sorry for what happened.. I'm speechless... I know I will never know the pain you are feeling inside, so again, I'm terribly sorry.

[SushiGURL]

I'm so sorry.
I can't even begin to feel how you must right now.
Shilo and Suzie seemed like great budgies,
and I'm sorry you hade to lose them
I hope everything goes well tomorow at the vets, because i know how much Grace meens to you :(

Rest In Peace, Shilo and Suzie

[BUUZBEE]

oh my goodness Aaralyn....today is not a good day in the bird world. one of my friends lost her also. I am gutted by your post. Its bad enough to lose 1...., but 2 and 3 in the same day. I am so heartbroken for you!
I dont like saying this, but do you think its possible Dallas caught something in her wild ventures? Poor Grace.... i feel for her :(
very very big hugs for you Aaralyn

[Nancy]

I, too, am very sorry. This is heartbreaking for you. The video was difficult to watch but what a peaceful death your little sweetie had. To lose 2 in one day is more than you should have to bear. I pray Grace is okay.

[A-n-M]

I am so sorry this happened suddenly to you.
You are one of the members who was dedicated for their health and benefit.
You gave them love, you gave them spirit.
Don't feel bad, just know you gave them the best possible home you could ever give a budgie.

I give you my condolences.

Hopefully everything is well with Grace.

R.I.P Shiloh and Suzie

[flyingfoal]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. This is the worst part of having pets especially when it is unexpected. Take comfort in knowing you gave them love and a good home.

[sammy2850]

im so sory rip suzie and shiloh

[Azul]

Oh, I'm so sorry.. I started to cry when I saw this post... I cry for you, it must be terrible to lose two budgies at once. If you buy a new budgie, maybe that would be like turning down your other budgies.. I don't know if you think like that, but I do. And it's terrible when a budgie dies in your hands, one of my budgies died in my hands.. You should know that I cry for you and all of your budgies... R.I.P. Christmas, Dallas, Shiloh and Suzie

[Amy]

I just do not know what to say.

Shiloh and Suzie.. in one day, that's just so terrible. :(

RIP to 2 beautiful budgies.

[Blue Moon]

I can not imagine the pain your heart and soul are going through. All of the heart ache and emotions in such a short time is...baffling. It tears the soul to shreads. My heart aches for you and your angel babies. We are all here for you, dont forget that. You and Grace will make it through the tough times, Im sure of it. Dont give up hope, what ever you do. I pray that Grace will be ok. Please tell us how the vet visit went.

I know my words cant change what has happened, but I hope they have brought you a little bit of comfort. **HUGS**

[Bea]

Were they sick to start with? Or did this happen suddenly and unexpectedly? :(

I'm so sorry to hear this and i wish i could give you a great big hug. *hugs* Words really can't express how sorry and sad i feel for you right now. RIP Shiloh and Suzie, you'll be remembered by all of us.

[Nikoletta]

Oh dear, I just saw this sad topic, the video and everything and I am really devastated.. I cannot describe how sorry I am, I feel for you.. It's really hard to face it, to see so ufair things happen.. RIP dear Shiloh and Suzie, we all love you and we'll never forget you.. I am sorry, I still cry and I cannot write something more.. :(

[pipp4]

oh softie...
i am so sorry

the same thing happend with my blueberry that did with yout shiloh.
R.I.P shiloh and suzie
you will be missed

[murtle]

I am so sorry softie, you 've had a bad time lately, I cried when I read your post, and then learned about Dallas too. So so sorry.

[memel]

hey, i am so sorry you had to go through that i'am going to say a prayer for gracie's health and well being and that she makes it through not being able to share her cage with her dear friends r.i.p.

[peekaboo]

Dear Aaralyn, I'm so sorry to read of your loss! I wish there was more that we could all do, and say to help you during this sad time. I have lost other pets before but I cannot imagine losing two of them at once. I know that you love all your budgies and they were blessed to have you to love them. I hope that all goes well with Graces vet appointment. RIP dear Shiloh and Suzie. Sincerely Tina Marie Peekaboo and Buddy

[BabycakesKristen]

My heart sunk just seeing the title of your post in the "In Memory" section of the forum. I'm so sorry I can't even express my feelings in words. You've been through so much with Dallas and in no way could you have been prepared for something so devistating and sudden.

Shiloh and Suzie's death must have happened for a similar reason to have occured in the same time period. Do you think that they could have been overcome with grief from the death of Dallas? This is just so sad, my heart goes out to you, Aaralyn.

Poor Grace must be just as shocked and confused as you are. Hopefully a visit to the vet will show that Grace is healthy and that she didn't catch anything from Shiloh and Suzie if they had anything.

You and Grace must stick together and offer each other comfort in this time of sorrow. I truly wish the best for the both of you during this hard time. Shiloh and Suzie are now reunited with Dallas and Christmas, flying high and free on Rainbow Bridge.

I wish I could give you a hug and comfort you because I can't even imagine what you must be going through!! Hang in there sweetie and keep your head high for Grace, because he needs you to stay strong. Again, I'm so sorry for your losses. It just breaks my heart.

Kristen

[softie]

Thank you everyone for your condolences :) It really means a lot to me...

It's just Grace and I now and we've been pulling through this together. He's sitting on my shoulder for hours day. He use to be a frantic type of budgie, but now he seems calm and relaxed.

I'm sure that Grace misses his buddies. He loved them more than me lol. I miss them just as much as I do. I wish they didn't have to go so soon.

In September, it would've been Shiloh's and Grace's first year anniversary with me. It saddens me because I was thinking about it and got really excited about it, the night before Shiloh passed away. I'm sure Grace would have loved to celebrate it with his best buddy.

I have some last photos of Shiloh and Grace. I won't post them just yet. I plan to post these pictures when the first year anniversary comes. I think it will be much more special that way.

By looking at them now, It makes sense. Grace and Shiloh both knew something was going happen. They cuddled non-stop and Grace was constantly strong for Shiloh. I should've noticed.

Anyways, it's been some tough days for me and my family. Shiloh was personally our favorite budgie for many reasons. We love Grace just as much and he's getting spoiled like a little baby hehe

Thank you everyone, for going through this difficult time with me and Grace<3

[Nikoletta]

Oh Aaralyn.. It's so sad to read that Shiloh & Grace were acting like something was going to happen..
I still don't know what to say.. Our thoughts are with you..

[Zazu_Love]

Aaralyn,

I cried when I seen this post. I'm always scared to look in this forum because I wish with all my heart that life wasn't so cruel. I don't know what to say to you other than my heart aches for you and I'm very, very sorry for your losses.

RIP Shiloh and Suzie.

[redgirl]

Dearest Aaralyn

I am so sorry to read this post, I adored Shiloh soo much I remember telling you how much I adored him and I cant believe he has gone to rainbow bridge so soon. Poor Susie too sweety I am very sorry for your loss, RIP litte sweeties, I hope you will be with Snowball and all the other budgies now. :(

[Neely]

Oh wow. When I read this, I started bawling. I am so sorry. I think I speak for everyone when I say that I felt as if your budgies are my budgies, too.

[Donna]

Oh Aaralyn,

I am so sorry that I missed this thread. I have not been able to be on for quite some time and it's such a shock to read that you now only have Grace. How tragic!!!! :(

Your video broke my heart, but I'm so glad that you could be there for Shiloh in those last moments, to stroke and console him. He died knowing that he was truly loved, and what a comfort that must have been to him. You are so sweet Aaralyn, and there is no doubt that you have always loved your pets to the fullest. What a wonderful loving home you have provided, and you can stand proud that you have done your best. You definitely have a Mommy's heart!

This has been a very difficult year for you and my heart goes out to you. I pray that things will be much more joyful for you in the days ahead. Take care my friend.

Donna